I have always been a devote worshiper of the Goddess of Love
even before I was able to utter those words without feeling like a heretic,
and as the saying goes “when I fall, I fall hard.”
I go out of my way to strip my Red Heart bare
Beating and Bleeding
and lay it at the feet of my beloved.
I am relentless with my expression of my love
without any consideration of the outcome
because to contain such a wealth of emotion is far too painful and wasteful.
There have been times when my love was not returned
and I have thought to myself:
“You must not understand the height to which I feel for you,
the depths to which I see you, the lengths to which I would go for you.
You must not understand the healing powers that the Love Goddess can provide,
through the Body and the Soul and the Mind of another human being.
Let me show you in a different way
so that you will appreciate and gladly receive my joy.
The joy that I feel when I See you, Touch you, make Love with you.”
But there is a flaw to this madness
one that you can only see when your heart is under someone else’s boot.
It turns out that the outcome of love’s expression is in fact very important.
Being trampled on is not love, no matter how strongly you feel.
Being neglected is not love, no matter how many excuses you receive.
When you tear your heart out for another, you leave a big gaping hole inside of you.
Your body doesn’t work right without it. You don’t eat. You don’t sleep.
Your brain goes into overdrive just trying to figure out how to get it back.
Your eyes lose sight of the wonderful things that surround you
and you obsess over what you know to be true but refuse to admit to yourself.
That you have willingly given away the one thing you need most of all,
your vibrant and knowing heart.
Well this is your Heart calling you back home.
You have a higher purpose.
You come in the service of the Love Goddess,
and Her’s is the greatest gift on earth.
Do not let their fear or rejection keep you from your higher purpose.
Move on and find a worthy recipient of your love
one that rejoices in returning your devotion.
And if they will not rise with you
then leave them in your dust.
I will not let this experience keep me from my relentless and divine expression of my love.
I will however, take care to ground my Bare and Vulnerable Heart right here
Within this Hot and Holy Temple
Where it belongs.
